It has been difficult to talk about my diagnoses separately as they all interact to make who I am. Genetics has a lot to answer for. My father almost certainly had autism/Asperger’s syndrome although it was never diagnosed. I think that autism is something that is innate and is not the result of environmental influences. I have to mention here that there is no evidence whatsoever to link vaccinations to autism.
I have often wondered whether I would have developed depression if I hadn’t had autism and experienced all the associated difficulties. However both of my parents have been treated for depression as was my maternal grandmother. I think that I was almost certainly genetically predisposed to both depression and fibromyalgia and my life experience led to the development of both conditions.
I have had periods of being very bitter about how my life has panned out. I think that this was only natural but I soon decided that there is futility in self pity. I am so fortunate in many ways. I have a loving husband who loves me unconditionally and two beautiful daughters. Although I always have some degree of pain my condition is not life threatening. I just have to make the best of what I have.
It is only in the past year that I feel I have made any real progress. I have worked very hard at getting my anxiety under control and David is reaping the benefits of me being more independent. Although he hardly complained it was becoming obvious that my condition was a source of stress for him. We have both been a lot happier in recent months. As previously mentioned I have also lost a lot of weight and found a level of exercise that is maintainable. I just hope that I don’t slip back into old habits.